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December 31, 2017

It was 8 years ago yesterday that Steven was taken from his home. This time of year always triggers the most distressing anxiety. This is how we spent two hours this afternoon. I was expected to repeat back every sentence by way of reassurance. It was accompanied by sobbing, punching his own head and ripping his shirt.

“Watch red Mr Bean video in the Cowley house forever. Watch the blue Mr Bean video in the Cowley house forever. Watch the green Mr Bean video in the Cowley house forever. Watch the purple Mr Bean video in the Cowley house forever. Watch the yellow Mr Bean video in the Cowley house forever. Watch the black Mr Bean video in the Cowley house forever. Watch the pink Mr Bean video in the Cowley house forever. Watch Mr Bean in America video in the Cowley house forever. Watch the Mr Bean’s Holiday DVD in the Cowley house forever. Watch the Mr Bean’s best bits video in the Cowley house forever. Watch the red Fawlty Towers video in the Cowley house forever. Watch the brown Fawlty Towers video in the Cowley house forever. Watch the green Fawlty Towers video in the Cowley house forever. Watch the blue Fawlty Towers video in the Cowley house forever. Watch Mrs Doubtfire DVD in the Cowley house forever. Watch Grease DVD in the Cowley house forever. Watch Cry Baby DVD in the Cowley house forever. Watch the Full Monty DVD in the Cowley house forever. Watch Muriel’s Wedding DVD in the Cowley house forever. Watch Priscilla DVD in the Cowley house forever. Watch Toy Story 1 DVD in the Cowley house forever. Watch Toy Story 2 DVD in the Cowley house forever. Watch Toy Story 3 DVD in the Cowley house forever. Watch The Erasure DVD in the Cowley house forever. Watch The Proclaimers video in the Cowley house forever. Watch The Pet Shop Boys DVD in the Cowley house forever. Watch the Abba Gold DVD in the Cowley house. Watch the Abba DVD with Pete Waterman in the Cowley house forever. Watch the Abba video with Neil Pearson in the Cowley house forever. Watch Mama Mia DVD in the Cowley house forever. Watch the Abba puppets DVD in the Cowley house forever. Watch the blue Beautiful South video in the Cowley house forever. Watch the Beautiful South video with Love Wars in the Cowley house forever. Watch the green Beautiful South DVD in the Cowley house forever. Watch the brown Beautiful South DVD in the Cowley house forever. Watch the Enrique on his motorbike DVD in the Cowley house forever. Watch the Tears For Fears DVD in the Cowley house forever. Watch the Spandau Ballet DVD in the Cowley house forever. Watch the Cher DVD in the Cowley house forever. Watch the Darts DVD in the Cowley house forever. Watch the Mika DVD in the Cowley house forever. Watch the Keane DVD in the Cowley house forever. Watch the Spice Girls DVD in the Cowley house forever. Watch the Shania Twain DVD in the Cowley house forever. Watch the Soft Cell DVD in the Cowley house forever. Watch The Sweet three DVDS in the Cowley house forever. Watch the Elvis Costello DVD in the Cowley house forever. Watch The Jam DVD in the Cowley house forever. Watch The Style Council DVD in the Cowley house forever. Watch The Christians video in the Cowley house forever. Watch the Busted DVD in the Cowley house forever. Watch the Travis DVD in the Cowley house forever. Watch the Anastasia DVD in the Cowley house forever. Watch the Lightning Seeds’ video in the Cowley house forever. Watch the Elton John at his show DVD in the Cowley house forever. Watch the Adam Ant DVD in the Cowley house forever. Watch the white Kate Bush video in the Cowley house forever. Watch the Will Young DVD in the Cowley house forever. Watch the Duran Duran DVD in the Cowley house forever. Watch the David Bowie DVD in the Cowley house forever. Watch the Kirsty McColl DVD in the Cowley house forever. Watch the white Live Aid DVD in the Cowley house forever. Watch the blue Live Aid DVD in the Cowley house forever. Watch the Boney M DVD in the Cowley house forever. Watch the Bryan Adams show DVD in the Cowley house forever. Watch the Fatboy Slim DVD in the Cowley house forever. Watch the little Housemartins DVD in the Cowley house forever. Watch the little Pet Shop Boys DVD in the Cowley house forever. Watch the little Right Said Fred DVD in the Cowley house forever. Watch all the Men Behaving Badly videos in the Cowley house forever. Watch all The Gladiators videos in the Cowley house forever. Watch all the Good Life DVDS in the Cowley house forever. Watch the all the people singing Abba songs video in the Cowley house forever. Watch the Grangewood Christmas Show video with Steven Neary in Bananas in pyjamas in the Cowley house forever. Watch the Grangewood Christmas Show video with Steven Neary in Walking through the jungle in the Cowley house forever. Watch the Grangewood Christmas Show video with Steven Neary in Walking on the Moon in the Cowley house forever. Watch the Grangewood Christmas Show video with Steven Neary in Cats in the Cowley house forever. Watch the red Coronation Street video with Rita and Mavis and Alec on the boat in the Cowley house forever. Watch the blue EastEnders video with Phil and Grant taking their clothes off in the Cowley house forever. Do massive music tapes with Dad on Saturday in the Cowley house forever. Do massive music tapes with Dad on Sunday in the Cowley house forever. Talk to Dad in the living room in the Cowley house forever. Talk to Dad in the kitchen in the Cowley house forever. Alan will cook your chicken pie on Thursday night in the Cowley house forever. Go to Jay’s sweet shop on Friday and Saturday and Sunday in the Cowley house forever. Go to bed in the Cowley house forever. Do a poo in the Cowley house forever. Have my lovely surprise in the Cowley house forever. Not going to a house with stairs. Staying in the Cowley house with no stairs forever”.

Happy New Year.

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7 Comments
  1. Lisa Eaden permalink

    Heartbreaking. Sending love and best wishes to you both. Wishing you a Happy New Year x

  2. Wishing you both Happy Forevers in the years ahead xxx

  3. judyb permalink

    Makes me cry. Why would anyone not want that?

  4. Jayne knight permalink

    Shocking Mark the bastards

  5. More heartbreaking, as Steven’s still having a better life than so many others who don’t have your care workers. Your site helps protect him. Your writing is a testimonial to your huge efforts.

  6. judyb permalink

    – and isn’t that just what we all want for ourselves…….expressed more honestly than most of us could manage

  7. Julia permalink

    Evidence enough of what a fundamentally brutalised institutionalised culture can do to a human being.

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